Last night I went to bed pretty early with a heavy heart and woke up to a hurtful message. I tried to keep myself busy at work and distract my mind away from him. But every now and then I'll check my phone to see if he had said anything.. /facepalm!
A break? Is that what we need? I don't know. Would this break lead to a break up? I'm so tired.. I just want to cry out loud. I just want him to know, and to care.. I sorta feel dumb right now, confessing about my gay feelings, while he's out there partying. Do you guys ever have that moment where you're like " I wonder if he's/she's thinking of me right now?" well yeahh, I miss him. I just want to call him up and rage at him. But I can't, I just can't. As stupid as it sounds, I painted my nails red for him. Now I'm removing it. I can't stand having things around me that reminds me of him. I feel as if it's unfair that I'm crying over him, and that he doesn't even give a shit about me. Well I hope he's having fun right now getting drunk and doing crap with his friends. I'm just gonna sit here and eat pho cause I'm hungry. Yep that's right, pho at 10pm. Anyways, I'm gonna head off to bed soon, got work tmrw. I've decided on working everyday.. Just to tuck myself away from everyone and everything. So yeah, my beautiful friends, I won't be on msn and fb as much this holidays okay. Don't miss Chi too much! <3
Mwahz -Lychee.
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