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I don't know how boy's brains even work sometimes. They just don't understand how certain words they say, we actually take it to the heart. I may not say anything, doesn't mean I don't have feelings and that I'm not upset. I'm not in a relationship with someone for no reason. I love him, and that's why I'm with him. Why doesn't he understand that? He always throws me to the edge of the cliff, force me to jump down, and when I do, he decides to pull me back up? I don't get it? Is it some sort of joke to him? I always convince myself this is the last time. Last chance for this relationship to work.. and what, I think I've said that countless times. I try to pull a smile no matter what, but then if I'm too happy, he goes "I don't care"... and if I cry, then I'm just too weak. WTF am I to do? Just received a goodnight text from him which looked like this "lol, goodnight xx".... I can sense the coldness in it... Sitting here, confessing my feelings while he's sleeping.. is it worth it?