Sigh

The sense of depression that runs in the atmosphere when your family has someone suffering cancer. Was happily eating dinner today when my sister in law's mum just started blacking out. Her face was pale, and she started shivering. It went on for 1 minute. I felt nervous and shocked :/ pikachu started crying and chi May's face was hell worried. Everyone in the restaurant was looking curiously. Chi may and everyone are all at the emergency ward atm and I'm with my nephew at home. I hope she's alright. It makes me think back to my dad. The man who I've always wished I could've spent more time with. I often flick back to old photos, hoping to regain the memory and image of my father from 10 years ago. I can still remember clearly the day I got picked up early by my brother from school. Coming home to mum ironing dad's favorite outfit, with tears running down her eyes. That moment I knew something bad had happened. As a little 5 year old, people thought I was too young to understand the concept of death. They told me "Chi, dad has to travel to somewhere far far, top of the clouds." And every so often when we travel somewhere by plane, I will always ask mum "are we on top of the clouds yet? How come I can't see dad?" As I matured, I knew what had happened. There was never a chance for me to see my father ever again. I get teary by saying this but I know he's there, watching over me from afar. Dad, I miss you.